كلما غاب القمر … ساد الظلام …  و كأن الظلام لا يغيب
و كأن الظلام يسدل  كلام .. و كأن الكلام له لهيب
يؤنبني فيزيدني أساً و ندما و دمعا ً لغياب الحبيب
فما ظننت يوما ً أن أحب حبا ً كهذا و ما ظننت أن أستجيب
لنداء لطالما فررت منة .. كأنه الموت القريب
و يا ليتني حين أجبته وجدت موتاً .. لكنه حياة القلوب
وياليتني أمنته و سكنته و ركنت له في الوقت العصيب
لكن ظلمي لحبها ظلما … جعلها من حبي تستجير
و جعل عيناي في غشاوة … و جعل صدري لها سعير
ويا ليتني كنت بها حليما … أو لطفت بها لطفا يسير
لكن ظني بالنساء أنساني … أن من النساء من لهن عبير
مثل عبيرها .. حين تستأنسه .. كأنما إستأنست السبيل
إلى جنة بربوة بها أشجار و أنهار و زهور و عصافير
يا ليتنى أرعاها مثلما رعتنى .. أو أرد لها بعض الجميل
فلطالما تبصرتني وتفقدتني .. و أرشدتني كأنها مصباح منير
 و لطالما ذبحت لها دمعا .. بقسوتي و قلبي الغيور
و لطالما تحملتني .. و كلمتني و أضحكتني .. ضحك الصغير
فيا لها من ملاك جميل برئ ذو قلب كبير
ياليتها تعلم أنما تغيبت عنها إلا لأمر عسير
وأن صوتها كان لي صحبة و أن حبها كنت عنه فقير

و ما تمنيت إلا أن تكون لي و تعلم أن قلبي لها أسير…

What is that I miss..
What is it I lose..
What did I do wrong…

Why wasn’t it what I want..
Why wasn’t it so smooth..
Why I always have to fight..

When will this reach an end…
When will it be fine..
When will I breath fresh air..

Feeling as If I were in a dream, dark lights, a prison with no walls, a sea with no water… A fire that is so cold..

I wanna run away to light… a hill that is all green, sun rises with crystal rays.. Frech cold air.. a lake of water… with a small wooden house… a friendly dog, small children…..

I Need Life….

Imagine how small universe is for something we dunno,

Imagine how Huge an atom is for something we dunno,

Imagine how Hot snow is for something we dunno,

and Imagine how cool sun is for something we dunno…

Imagine how closer sky to us for something we dunno,

Imagine how apart a smile to us for something we dunno,

Imagine how Love could reach us , actually I dunno,

And Imagine how could it connect us – so far – really, i dunno.

 I Love you to the extreme limits of that Unimaginable thing that we dunno.

( For the person cured me from all pains, and bring my heart back to life, the reason for all happiness and the destruction of all tears, For the only person so dear to my heart yet we are still apart .. for that only person whom I really really can live the rest of my life with ,, For Your My Sweet heart, whom I confess my love to you till the last breath in my chest, For you My Sweet heart, I will give last smile on my lips… I Love You Forever S. )

I Have nothing to say …… But …. This Girl I Love is my God’s Gift ….

God, Thank you for that gift and every other gift ….. Thank you so much for sending me an angel to care for me …

I Love Her .. and I really really thank YOU for that ….

She is ” Mish Normal “

Its a Very simple question .. Yes Or No ..
But its a Hard answer ..and don’t quickly say Yes Or No …
Reply for the following questions..
if yes was the reply for 80% of the following questions .. then You are a Geek .. else ,,  Don’t consider yourself a geek..

1- Do you go the bathroom with your laptop, to continue reading an article or continue coding some stuff ?? !!!
2- Do you think of coding – solution  or even doing them while talking to your GF on phone or skype ?? !!
3- Do you spend at least 6 hours per day reading ?? or May be coding .. not chatting or navigating facebook and youtube ??
4- Do you spend at least 30 min to take the decision of shutting down your pc ??
5- Do you prefer meeting friends on Skype instead of meeting in Costa ??
6- How Many Times did you feed and drink your laptop with you ?? spilling your drink over it ??
7- Do you walk to the kitchen carring your laptop reading an article online ??
8- Did you ever tell your GF ( if you have one ) that you love her as much as you love your laptop or may be a little more .. and started describing how much you love your laptop and its system instead of describing how much you love her ?
9- Do you dream of coding . Programs, solution while sleeping ?
10- Do you see coding Total fun ?
11- Do you cut a movie while watching it ..coz it is boring and return to surf the internet or code for a while or may be sleep ?
12- Do you really see having no NET the end of your life ?
13- Do you usually pay half of your salary to upgrade your IT components ?
14- Is your rss reader regulary returns back to 0 ?
15- Do you know more than 6 programming languages ?
[ java, c, c++, bash, html, javascript, php, css, groovy ,etc ... ]

if you do so … Then Welcome to the GEEKs World !!!!

Wipe away your tears,
You took away my tears and brought me happiness,
You took away my fears and wiped away all sadness,
You gave my heart a home, after being homeless.
Wipe away your tears,
You’ve returned back my courage, power and made me fearless
You’ve made my life full of roses and smiles
You’ve painted a new world using the color of our hearts.
Wipe away your tears,
You made me miss all my pains,
You’ve cleaned me from  all my sins,
You gave my life a lot of beautiful meanings.
Wipe away your tears,
You are the only resident in my heart,
The only one will never be apart,
And The only one I can never hurt,
Wipe away your tears,
Coz I Love You,
Wipe away your tears, Or let me wipe them for you.
I Truly Deeply Happily Saying “ I’m in a True Deep LOVE with YOU, ….”

How I needed you
How I grieve now you’re gone
In my dreams I see you
I awake so alone

I know you didn’t want to leave
Your heart yearned to stay
But the strength I always loved in you
Finally gave way

Somehow I knew you would leave me this way
Somehow I knew you could never, never stay
And in the early morning light
After a silent peaceful night
You took my heart away
And my being

In my dreams I can see you
I can tell you how I feel
In my dreams I can hold you
And it feels so real

I still feel the pain
I still feel your love
I still feel the pain
I still feel your love

And somehow I knew you could never, never stay
And somehow I knew you would leave me
And in the early morning light
After a silent peaceful night
You took my heart away
Oh I wish, I wish you could have stayed

Dunno What To Write… The Conclusion .. Or The Steps in My Life Led To My OWN Conclusions

I Fear steps would reveal others’ secrets .. … so  I Will Keep them Mine …

Applying the statment “The Two Rules of Success: 1st. Don’t tell everything you know.”

And Here is Whats yours … My Conclusions Perior to the 22 Age

1- Never Trust Put God then Your Own Abilities ( Assuming you know your abilities well )

2- Never Have Emotions ( Love, Hate, Care,… ) But If You Must .. then Learn to control them .. and that won’t happen But with Lots of Pain ( Then u will end up having no emotions ).

3- Never Break Your Word ( Even If You gave it to the Devil )

4- Don’t be The Talkie Person.. Listen More …You got 2 Ears .

5- Never Give Up .. But Never Stick to One Road… ( You Failed to Reach A Goal ..  Replace it with another )

6- Never Take Revenge … ( It will first Hurt you more than others .. and then u will lose ..) But If You Must, Take The Coolest Revenge ( Its the meal Best served Cold )

7- Bear in Mind .. That Life turns best for those who make the best use of how it turns out ..

8- Never Break The Heart Loved You … But If U Can’t Give love back … U Better Hurt it or you’ll kill it one day ..

9- Never Trust Friends .. and Never Betray them …

10- Use Money But Never Let Money Use U …

11- Walk The Right Way All Time … Unless You Must Use The Unethical One … And If You Started Using the non-ethical methods… Let ur goal be ethical.. Or U Will Fail. .

12- Always Trust Ur Dead Feelings … And Never Listen to Others about a subject matters only to u ..

13- Happiness is a way to live not a goal in Life …. Never Let Ur soul to depression …

14- Apply Justice, Have Mercy But Never get The Nobility of Leaving Whats Yours for any person and Never Sacrifice Your Happiness

15- Always .. and Forever Think Solid … Never forget a point .. and if .. then make the best use of ur faults for your own success

16- Remember that sometimes .. We break Hearts to keep Lives … Sometimes we Fight to bring happiness

17- Not Every Black is Devil ..and Not Every White is Angel …. Sometimes … People got Devils Inside Angels .. other times … People are angels behind Devilish Faces.

18- We think strength is holding to each other but sometimes strength found in the letting go …

19- Never Reveal a secret …  and Never Have One ..

20- And At Last … Always Be Greatful For What You Are … Devil Or Angel .. and remember … as long as u breath .. u can change from devil to angel and from angel to devil …. .. and u can always make changes ..

——- These are What I Conclude From Human Life at the Age 22 —–

Some Conclusions are not written … These are the public ones…

And For everyone I Knew .. I Send this message …

” We Change in Minutes …. “

1 thing I was tought this year … ” Live the moment as it is  … Plan to the worst future …. And Never Wish to be something … Only Hope it comes as u planned !!

…………….. And As A Crazy Person …………

Saying Bye For the 21 ME… And Thanking the One tought Me .. How to Be The Man I Am .. .

……………. Thank You ………….

Loving someone

Is Falling from Sky, with no resistance

Is Feeling so High, and no persistence

Is Fighting Everyday, for no existence

Is A Feeling so Wired, but no conventions

Loving Someone

Is truly a Feeling, that comes only once.

Is Missing so Much, The one in your hands.

Is Being so Careful, not to miss a glance

Is Remembering every Word, every smile and every dance.

Loving someone

Is Feeling so Lonely, with everyone around

Is Being so High, While lying on the ground.

Is Traveling Everywhere, and nothing can bound

Is Feeling lots of Pains, When silence is her sound

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“Love feels no burden, regards not labors, strives toward more than it attains, argues not of impossibility, since it believes that it may and can do all things. Therefore it avails for all things, and fulfils and accomplishes much where one not a lover falls and lies helpless”.

Thomas à Kempis (1380-1471), German monk, mystic, in The Imitation of Christ, pt. 3, ch. 6 (1471).